update
I thought it was about time for an update, and my linguistics textbook is boring (sorry Amy), so I'm upstairs listening to Ben Harper, watching the snow swirl around in the sunset and writing to you guys instead.
Flannery (housemate/chore partner/friend) and I just finished making sushi for dinner (vegan of course) and it's sitting in little rolls on the table downstairs, waiting for 6pm when the other housemates will come and pounce on it. I failed 2 quizzes this week; Linguistics and Italian. Testament to how distracted I've been.
I'm trying to stay afloat in school, making some choices that I've never made before, becoming strangely close to Mike's parents, and thinking ahead to this summer and to the next school year (which I'm going to spend in Florence). It's going to feel good to get out of Northampton, as much good stuff as there is here...it's going to be good to get out of the US, too. I need a new world for a little while.
If there's anything I'm learning from this it's that morality is all opinion, black and white and right and wrong only exist in your head, and that I'm at a crucial point right now where I know that if I continue trying to live life without hurting people or making enemies, I WILL lose myself in the process. before now I feel like it's always been a risk and a possibility and I've been able to compromise myself without losing the ability to get Alex back. Now, my wellbeing rests on hurting someone else - and someone I care deeply about.
Flannery (housemate/chore partner/friend) and I just finished making sushi for dinner (vegan of course) and it's sitting in little rolls on the table downstairs, waiting for 6pm when the other housemates will come and pounce on it. I failed 2 quizzes this week; Linguistics and Italian. Testament to how distracted I've been.
I'm trying to stay afloat in school, making some choices that I've never made before, becoming strangely close to Mike's parents, and thinking ahead to this summer and to the next school year (which I'm going to spend in Florence). It's going to feel good to get out of Northampton, as much good stuff as there is here...it's going to be good to get out of the US, too. I need a new world for a little while.
If there's anything I'm learning from this it's that morality is all opinion, black and white and right and wrong only exist in your head, and that I'm at a crucial point right now where I know that if I continue trying to live life without hurting people or making enemies, I WILL lose myself in the process. before now I feel like it's always been a risk and a possibility and I've been able to compromise myself without losing the ability to get Alex back. Now, my wellbeing rests on hurting someone else - and someone I care deeply about.
posted by Alex at 4:00 PM
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