captain obvious?

it occurs to me that I have a lot of conflicting beliefs, or things that I believe in but don't necessarily act on. For example, I believe in being honest about the reactions I have to what people say/do if they're hurting me. But, I never do it. I don't think that's out of hypocrisy as out of fear and forgetfulness. I know that my relationships would be a lot better if I told people when they did something that made me hurt or mad, rather than clamming up and holding it in until I explode. In the moment it's not so simple...I need to learn how to remind myself that I can say something, and not to let the moment slip by. Often, by the time it occurs to me to be up front and direct, the situation has passed and I feel stupid bringing up something that's been written off as meaningless.

My deepest apologies to Dad and Kellen, who are the main victims of my inability to communicate on the spot.

It is too late, and I am too sleepy, to write anything else. Other than: I like Alanis, but I preferred her when she was miserable.